My life after the 15 minutes…

 Yesterday may have been one of the happiest days of my life. I think I'm having a serotonin let down today because I have an overwhelming feeling of dread that we are moving away from this (or movers come in two weeks--I can't even believe that's real). My sisters and I have been  crying off and on all day and I can't seem to shake the feeling that we are making a huge mistake. I know we're not--I know we are making the right choice. But I've in a 100 yard radius for 27 of my (soon to be) 33 years on the planet.  I was on the go from about 5:30 yesterday morning until about 7 at night and am so exhausted today. Our husbands agreed to take all the kids today so Jenn, Jess and myself are all cuddled up in Jenn's bed rotting away at social media, giggling, crying, hugging, sharing videos, looking at furniture, etc... We've stopped and started The Notebook about 20 times but we keep getting interrupted by "We listen and don't judge" fails or r...

 I got to know most of you in July--if you would have told me back then that there would still be people interested in our little story at Thanksgiving, I would have told you that you were nuts. But here we are and I really want you all to know how truly thankful and blessed for all of you.  You all have given me some amazing advice and you have allowed me to come on and unload some very dark stuff during some very dark times. You supported me when I had some of the most vile things imaginable said about me and my family. I know we are virtual strangers to each other but it's probably the fact that you have been the best examples of humanity behind the keyboard that allowed me to open up and make so much progress.  Bubs and I are in a completely different place this Thanksgiving this year vs. where we were last year. Last year I was furious with him because he kept rushing me to get out of the house because we were late to his parents and then when I was ready to go he to...

It's a Monday-a pretty normal day in the grand scheme of things. The kids and I are off for Thanksgiving and we are trying to not drive my work from home husband crazy with us being around all day but for us that is normal. It seems that with as close as we are, we are always in each others way in some way or another.  It is not normal in that Bubs chose to use my blog to communicate some pretty big life ideas last night after I'd gone to sleep. We have been in this sort of détente all day long in that I can tell he's wondering why I haven't responded to him and I'm wondering why he hasn't just come and asked me why I haven't responded to him. He has our daughter at practice right now and this will be my response.  Last night I was utterly exhausted. We had an amazingly fun weekend with all the family. The weekend mostly revolved around all the "women folk" getting together to make last plans to how to manage our obnoxiously huge Thanksgiving dinne...

 As I sit in our bed, laptop perched on my belly (which seems huge all of the sudden) and weepy from the events of the day and crazy hormones, I am reminded how lucky I am. It's about 1:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. Not a wink. My kids are tucked safely in their rooms, my husband is sleeping soundly while taking huge, rhythmic breaths and the little one inside of me seems happy and content. Our outdoor only cats seem calm and two of the dogs are snoring at the base of the stairs. Aside from our third dog who does hourly patrols around the house to make sure all is safe, everyone in my house is sleeping soundly in the cool fall evening. So much of that peace is because I got so lucky with who I married--who also happens to be one of the reasons I can't sleep, I'm just so excited to be in his presence.   I hadn't really thought of this until recently but my due date is April 18th. That will be very close to exactly 20 years when Bubs and I were sat next to each...

this post is also at  https://old.reddit.com/user/DecentData5441/comments/1gtivuo/we_almost_officially_have_a_house_in_az_and_other/  if you would like to comment and/or talk over there!  Happy Sunday everyone!  It's still fairly early and both kids are still at sleepovers. I kind of shocked myself this morning when I declined my younger sister's invitation to go to breakfast and then attend services with the this morning. Usually on these weekends when Bubs has been out of town, I'm always super starved for human contact and jump at any invitation. This morning it just felt right to stay home, walk the dogs and get some stuff picked up and organized. I have always been an extreme extrovert (some would say annoying) but I'm finding more and more that I really enjoy and need my alone time.  I'm going to try again to cross post this on reddit, I like this blogger platform for many reasons but I so miss interacting with everyone in a conversational way. I read all ...

It's been quite a day. Everything was fine until about an hour ago and then I got a wonderful reminder of how truly shitty people can be.  So as I've said many times, I am married to a very good looking guy. He has a "almost rugged" handsomeness of guy who can look at home in ranch wear, a military uniform or even his nice outfits (that I have to pick out for him). He's tall, he's in great shape (but still a little thin from all the time he spends running), and he still has all of his hair. He's also very sweet and he would say what I'm about to say is not true. I don't think I'm bad looking but I also think that I got very lucky when I landed such a handsome man. If he's a 9.5 on the 10 scale, I'm a 7. It's is what it is and I appreciate that he's always seen me as beautiful even if he's a bit delusional.  Because we got together so young and lived in a place where more or less everyone knew each other, I had plenty of remi...

 So my loving husband is off on his first solo trip in a really long time. I am just back from dropping him off at the airport and I sobbed like a baby the entire time. We had gotten so comfortable in our routine in recent weeks and I am really going to miss him. He'll be back the Tuesday before Thanksgiving so this is nothing compared to his two six month deployments that he's had to do. But I've gotten so used to getting home at about 1, making him lunch and getting a smack Don Draper'esque smack on the butt as he kicks me out of his office so he can work for the rest of the afternoon.      The really good news is that he's officially working for his new boss in Tucson and I can't even begin to describe how nice it's been to not have him shoot out of the bed at 3 in the morning because some factory in Asia messed up a production run. His new boss's wife even sent me (yes me, the wife) flowers welcoming us (yes, us) to the team with a list of Tucson are...

 My idea going forward was that I would cross post all my blog posts here and on reddit but after Friday, I'm not sure if that's such a good idea anymore. I guess I should say that my new reddit account appears to be intact and in fact I just posted there and it seems fine. So please feel free to interact with me over there as I know the conversation is so much easier.  Bubs on the other hand wasn't so lucky. I believe you can still read comment on my last reddit post (I'm not going to say his username because I have no idea how reddit is keeping track of us) but if you click on the account, it says it's suspended. That account lasted maybe all of 10 minutes.  As to the content of his post, guilty as charged. I couldn't believe he would actually try to hide Sour Gummy Worms from me. We've fought over who gets access to the "good' worms (the pink/blue and red/yellow) since we were literal kids. I've always won and he's stuck eating the orange...

 Hi everyone, so obviously I've taken about a week hiatus from posting anything. I think ordinarily people would expect to hear that when a blogger is gone for a while that there is some dramatic update or I've had some issues. Well exactly the opposite is true...I've been...happy. Well aside from the utter ridiculousness of my husband's only favorite sports team winning a thing literally called the "World Series" and he's still somehow upset--the Yankees lost game 6, the Dodgers didn't win. If I never hear that again it will be too soon. Since you guys are always so helpful, does anyone have any advice on what to do when you are bound for life by DNA to some who is a moron? Because I'm lost, I just keep reminding myself that he's ok to look at and that's not nothing.  But I am happy. I am genuinely happy. I updated a while ago that I was moving to part time to essentially close out my days as an "assistant to the assistant principal...