One the eve of Bub's surgery, we had our first terrible night--and I need some "therapy"

 It's been two weeks with little Ashley and for the most part she has been an amazing little sleeper and eater...that was until last night where she just wouldn't calm down and she just wouldn't latch. I know something was making her uncomfortable and my heart broke for her as Bubs and I took turns walking her around the house to get her to calm down. She finally ate at about 5:30 in the morning after which we both completely passed out in my chair--for maybe 10 minutes but it was one of those deep sleeps that felt like hours. Bubs had to be up and ready to go for his surgery at 6 so I was able to put Ashley in our bed and let her sleep while I got Bubs up, let the in-laws in so they could take drive him and get the kids up and ready for school. The plan had originally been that both of his parents would take him but my mother-in-law came in clutch and saw how tired I was (what me? my hair was a ratty nest, I'm wearing the same clothes I have been for days, I have milky, dried puke all down my back and I just look saggy and gross).  I wasn't even slightly insulted when she said it looked like I needed a rest and she would take the kids to school and come back and stay with me and Ashley. Mom was able to sit with Ashley in our room while I took a shower, got into some clean clothes and went and completely passed out in Evie's bed for a couple hours. 

I was amazed at how quickly Bub's surgery went. I think he was supposed to actually go under at 9ish and he and his dad were actually back home by 2. Again I am so appreciative that he is willing to do this for me but when he started bragging how well he slept while under the valium, I got extremely jealous. 

Evie got back to Tucson today and will be here through Friday so she has all three kids out for a walk while I nurse my husband back to health and get him set up to sleep--he's currently listening to the Dodgers game on the radio like a freaking 90 year old man. Thank god she is here because I know for a fact he couldn't get up and take care of Ashley if she has a night like she did last night. In fact I think I may bribe my mother-in-law by telling her she can take the kids shopping for toys if she stays the night as well. I'm sure she will.

Since I don't have a lot to write about since I'm in the very routine day to day life of having an infant around, I think I'm going to take the opportunity to give some thanks. Most of these people will never read this so writing this out will allow me a practice run for what I need to say when I express my gratitude in person. Also, writing just makes me feel better and I could use a little boost. 

To my in-laws: I know I spend a lot of time getting frustrated at you Mom--in fact if we could ever come to some sort of agreement that you don't need to spend your entire retirement nest-egg on plastic toys for my kids, I would be ever so grateful. But I can't express how lucky I am that I married into a family that dropped everything to drive 13 hours because I had a health scare. Well not only drive here, but stay for, six or seven weeks by the time you end up moving on? And you've been sleeping in a metal box on wheels in the middle of the desert (although the view is pretty great). And since Ashely has arrived you've been so helpful and driving Bubs to his surgery today is just one example of something that is going to make our lives so much easier. I love you so much.

Evie: You will probably actually read this so tell me again how I got a Disney Princess into my life? I made a random call to some church friends about baby sitting and ultimately gained a new sister. Just so you know, when if we ever have to make a choice between you and my brother--we choose you. 

Mom: It was such a treat to see you and I miss you so much already. While I'm still somewhat convinced I was switched at birth because I could never be as calm as you, I am eternally grateful for everything you have done for me, my kids and my husband. I went into education because of you and you will always be my personal and professional role model. 

Jenn: I love you so much girl. I miss you so much and I anytime I get stressed, I wish we could move back into our old childhood room and have one of our conversations that lasted all night. Thank you for never kicking me out of your bed when I needed you most. 

Jess: My little twin. You were a saint with Ashley last week and I can't wait for you to see her again. I can't tell you how much I miss being mistaken for you while out in town. It's kind of weird to live in a place where there aren't two of us walking around the neighborhood. 

Brian: If you ever call my girls "weird red heads" again--I'm going to beat the shit out of you. 

Bubs: grow up you big baby, it was a little snip. I dealt with morning sickness and tearing for you. Quit moaning and enjoy your baseball game you old man. 

Ok this was kind of weird and not sure if it will make any sense but here goes--publish button. Evie is back with the kids and fingers crossed I can get Ashely fed and have her sleep for a couple of hours while everyone else winds down.